(This is also today’s post for AlbanyCrossFit.com— thanks Jay!)
First, a little recap from Fall Face-Off:
Overall, my first time competing couldn’t have been a more valuable experience. It exposed a mental weakness during the timed, 1RM clean and jerk—- which was, indeed, unfortunate—- but then (surprisingly enough) it also exposed my ability to move forward and rock onfor the remainder of the competition. After what had happened, I actually still felt confident.
Wait a minute. Me? Not have a meltdown over failing at a PR? In front of a CROWD?! Holy— OK, that’s a sign. I was meant for this. And, now, I know it.
My mother and I at Fall Face-Off
Before this weekend, I had never competed in a CrossFit competition. I’ve watched and cheered and wished it was me, countless times—- at Sectionals, Regionals, and, via the internet, the 2010 CrossFit Games—- but, never have I been on the inside as the athlete being cheered for. Never have I ever been the CrossFit Competitor.
Heart racing. Brain focused. Limbs stretching.
I was meant for this, I know it.
I understand even more, now, how this becomes a serious addiction. I understand how this ceases to be a hobby and becomes a lifestyle. Never before have I felt so motivated, inspired, or strong-willed. I thought I was dedicated before, with my adherence to strict Paleo-Zone and working out 5 days a week. But, now… now that’s not enough.
Ryan, Arianna, Myself, and Ian —- “The A Team”
Now I want and will do even more to maximize my athletic potential.
I will not complain about the nutritional sacrifices I have to make. I will not wish I had a different body and make excuses for why things are harder for me than for others. I will not casually walk away from thrusters and rowing because I know I suck at it. I will jump in head-first and dominate every insecurity, weakness, or physical limitation that is holding me back. I have to.
I was meant for this.
*NOTE: WODs, standings, performance critiques, and more pictures to come this week. It was such a fabulous event that I can’t stop talking about it… clearly!
